It’s Been A While

It has been far too long. I really feel the urge to write bubbling up inside me tonight.
I don’t know what the deal is with my lack of writing. I think about blogging a lot but don’t do it. I think some of it is just laziness but I also think I am muted by my own perceived inadequacies.
Even now, though I want to write, I don’t know how to express all I want. I also think I want to write instead of dealing with things in real life. Like maybe I can censor and disguise my thoughts here and get out what I want in some little way without any actual confrontation. Maybe I can polish up my words and my life until they shine so bright that the truth won’t cause any pain or discomfort.